Over and Out.

This is the last time you walk into my life and think you can play with my emotions. I am not a pushover. You’re a poisonous, disgusting human being. You bring nothing but disappointment and pain. The Apple doesn’t fall far from the tree. A product of your mother. A toxic human, who can’t accept […]

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Unsure

How can I be so sure that this is the real thing? how can I know for sure that your heart is in it for good. I’ve spent the last year drowning. The water is calm, I’ve broken the surface, I’m floating and breathing. But I can’t help the fear of impending doom. I can’t […]

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9 Days Without You

We are 9 days into 2020, a new decade that I promised to be filled with success. I am 9 days into a world of no contact with you. I haven’t heard your voice. I haven’t seen your face. I didn’t even call you in a moment of trauma. I have been strong, a lot […]

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Onwards

You walked back into my life and instantly it was like all the missing pieces instantly came together. I had this empty place in my heart that has been there since you walked out. It was healed. But not even 24 hours later, you said you regretted it. I felt each little piece of me […]

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End of a Chapter

A letter for all the people that have come into my life, and left me with a gaping hole in my chest. This is for you. I’ve never been able to express the psychological damage that I have received over the years. I’ve never been good at verbalising my feelings. I do know that I […]

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Hatred

I grit my teeth. I scream until my voice disappears. I cry. I repeatedly punch my pillow until my arms are exhausted. I lose my sense of self and my surroundings. This emotion inside of me doesn’t come out often. It’s always buried under the hatchet, and covered by the smiles, the laughs and the […]

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Desire

What I would do to feel loved again…. Every fibre of my being craves it. I just want someone to love me. I can’t go out places without looking at other happy couples that are in their own bubble. There’s so many things I want to experience in life, but I can’t find any enjoyment […]

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Drowning

Each time I get my head above water and catch a breath, another wave sends me tumbling under. These waves are getting stronger, and they’re pinning me to the sandy floor below. My lungs are craving oxygen and I’m going to drown. I’m slowly drowning. It feels like my life is slipping from my fingertips. […]

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Dust

In the blink of an eye, everything that I had was gone. Once again, I’m left in the dust. I loved with every fibre of my being and I wasn’t enough. The little family that I had built and supported is now shattered. Things were slowly going downhill, but I held onto the hope that […]

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Craving

I crave a love as deep as the ocean. In saying that, the love I have is perfect. I love him with all my heart and I know he loves me. We have a perfect little family. But there are things that I wish I could have. I want to have my hand held wherever […]

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