Over and Out.

This is the last time you walk into my life and think you can play with my emotions. I am not a pushover. You’re a poisonous, disgusting human being. You bring nothing but disappointment and pain. The Apple doesn’t fall far from the tree. A product of your mother. A toxic human, who can’t accept […]

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Unsure

How can I be so sure that this is the real thing? how can I know for sure that your heart is in it for good. I’ve spent the last year drowning. The water is calm, I’ve broken the surface, I’m floating and breathing. But I can’t help the fear of impending doom. I can’t […]

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9 Days Without You

We are 9 days into 2020, a new decade that I promised to be filled with success. I am 9 days into a world of no contact with you. I haven’t heard your voice. I haven’t seen your face. I didn’t even call you in a moment of trauma. I have been strong, a lot […]

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Onwards

You walked back into my life and instantly it was like all the missing pieces instantly came together. I had this empty place in my heart that has been there since you walked out. It was healed. But not even 24 hours later, you said you regretted it. I felt each little piece of me […]

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Time

“Good things take time,” It’s been 6 months since I went through the most traumatic experience of my life. I’ve been a single mother for 6 months, and I’m still as single as I’ve ever been. I’m working 2 jobs, and studying Nursing full time….but I’m so unbelievably down. I soldier on, and I put […]

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End of a Chapter

A letter for all the people that have come into my life, and left me with a gaping hole in my chest. This is for you. I’ve never been able to express the psychological damage that I have received over the years. I’ve never been good at verbalising my feelings. I do know that I […]

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Free

I’m learning how to love life again. I’m learning how to enjoy things with just my own company. I’ve learnt that I am truly not ready for a relationship and I’m okay with that. There are so many aspects of a relationship that I miss, however after what has happened, I’m still in an unhealthy […]

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Desire

What I would do to feel loved again…. Every fibre of my being craves it. I just want someone to love me. I can’t go out places without looking at other happy couples that are in their own bubble. There’s so many things I want to experience in life, but I can’t find any enjoyment […]

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Dust

In the blink of an eye, everything that I had was gone. Once again, I’m left in the dust. I loved with every fibre of my being and I wasn’t enough. The little family that I had built and supported is now shattered. Things were slowly going downhill, but I held onto the hope that […]

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Lonely Late Nights

It’s 2am, and the world around you is fast asleep; blissfully unaware that you’re awake. In the darkness of the night, you’re holding your child; nursing them. You feed them, you burp them and you change their nappy. Your partner is snoring slightly next to you. You look down at your child and it feels […]

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