Over and Out.

This is the last time you walk into my life and think you can play with my emotions. I am not a pushover. You’re a poisonous, disgusting human being. You bring nothing but disappointment and pain. The Apple doesn’t fall far from the tree. A product of your mother. A toxic human, who can’t accept […]

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Acceptance

Today was the day that my life changed for the better. Something that I never thought would happen occurred. “Congratulations! You have been offered a position in the Bachelor of Nursing!” I have accepted the offer, and next month will start the next chapter of my life! In 3 years time, I’ll be a qualified […]

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Unsure

How can I be so sure that this is the real thing? how can I know for sure that your heart is in it for good. I’ve spent the last year drowning. The water is calm, I’ve broken the surface, I’m floating and breathing. But I can’t help the fear of impending doom. I can’t […]

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9 Days Without You

We are 9 days into 2020, a new decade that I promised to be filled with success. I am 9 days into a world of no contact with you. I haven’t heard your voice. I haven’t seen your face. I didn’t even call you in a moment of trauma. I have been strong, a lot […]

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Onwards

You walked back into my life and instantly it was like all the missing pieces instantly came together. I had this empty place in my heart that has been there since you walked out. It was healed. But not even 24 hours later, you said you regretted it. I felt each little piece of me […]

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Free

I’m learning how to love life again. I’m learning how to enjoy things with just my own company. I’ve learnt that I am truly not ready for a relationship and I’m okay with that. There are so many aspects of a relationship that I miss, however after what has happened, I’m still in an unhealthy […]

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Desire

What I would do to feel loved again…. Every fibre of my being craves it. I just want someone to love me. I can’t go out places without looking at other happy couples that are in their own bubble. There’s so many things I want to experience in life, but I can’t find any enjoyment […]

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Phoenix

‘From the ashes, a new life was born’ A common occurrence and the story of my life. It’s a case of 1 step forward then 10 steps back. But here I am; reborn and learning all over again. I’ve had a lot of things thrown my way, some that I thought would take me out. […]

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Dust

In the blink of an eye, everything that I had was gone. Once again, I’m left in the dust. I loved with every fibre of my being and I wasn’t enough. The little family that I had built and supported is now shattered. Things were slowly going downhill, but I held onto the hope that […]

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Craving

I crave a love as deep as the ocean. In saying that, the love I have is perfect. I love him with all my heart and I know he loves me. We have a perfect little family. But there are things that I wish I could have. I want to have my hand held wherever […]

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