The Otherside

“The grass is always greener on the otherside” –  In this particular case, yes. The grass is definitely greener. I haven’t written in almost 9 months, but I’ve finally decided to pick it back up again. It has been an absolute roller coaster of a journey since my last post. I have faced a lot of challenges, […]

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Therapy

You know that feeling where you’ve lost something so important and you’re never going to get it back? I am constantly in that state. I’m always on edge. Always on the verge of breaking down. I’m so tired. Poetry is the only thing that makes me feel like I’m close to him. I’ve done this […]

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Never enough.

I don’t know how much longer I can take this. No matter what I do, I’ll never be accepted or liked. I am going to live my life in limbo for the sake of others. It’s what I’ve done my entire life. I am so tired. I think they win. They have burnt and broken […]

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Shattered

Today I am exhausted. I feel broken and shattered. I have felt like there has been a weight on my shoulders slowly becoming heavier with each passing day, and last night was the straw that broke the camels back. I have always known that I’ve been disliked; all my life I’ve been disliked by those […]

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Pain

If you truly loved someone, would you put them through hell and back? Yesterday I had no choice but to say goodbye to someone I have considered my best friend for years. We had been through so much together. I loved him, a lot. We lost a baby together. He was there when I lost […]

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Nightmares

I am a zombie. I am a shell of who I once was. I cannot sleep without seeing him. Sleep used to be the only peace I could find. I was doing so well. But he found his way through the cracks, and now has trickled into my dreams. It’s not even a trickle anymore. […]

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Breathing

Some days it hurts to breathe. It’s like a boulder crushing my chest and the air can’t get into my lungs. Thoughts fill my mind and I can’t get rid of them. I try everything I can to avoid them because they hoard my brain and suffocate me. Memories are constant, they won’t leave. There […]

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Happy & Positive

I have been feeling exceptionally happy this past week. I’ve really noticed what happiness is since I’ve surrounded myself with beautiful people. I don’t have time for the negativity that was in my life. The sun shines, the world turns and I am continuing to live. I have started something that will create a beautiful […]

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Survivor

Don’t let anyone dim your light. If they’re trying to dim it, it’s because your shining in their eyes. If there are people out there that are really going out of their way to make you feel miserable, then you need to remind yourself that they are the ones that are deeply troubled. They are […]

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