Survivor

Don’t let anyone dim your light. If they’re trying to dim it, it’s because your shining in their eyes.

If there are people out there that are really going out of their way to make you feel miserable, then you need to remind yourself that they are the ones that are deeply troubled. They are the type of people that feel good feeding off others pain. They laugh, smile and gossip at the fact you are feeling down. But here’s a secret. If you stand tall, smile and show them you don’t care (even if you do, just care behind closed doors) then they will have no choice but to move on. They are bullies.

I made the mistake of letting bullies get to me. Throughout my entire childhood I had best friends that made me feel worthless. They made me feel like I truly wasn’t a worth anything. To this day they are all best friends still, except I’m not included. But to be honest, I was never included. They always excluded me, hurt me, bitched about me. They threw me around like a rag doll. To this day, they still bitch about me. They still try and hurt me. All I do now is laugh because they truly must be deeply psychologically fucked up to try and get a rise out of me. It’s been happening for a solid 15 years for one in particular.

They cannot hurt me anymore. I will continue to rise and I will continue to have such positive surroundings that they will start to hate me even more. They will hate that I am able to be the best person I can be, while they live a terrible, depressing life. While I am so happily in love with a beautiful person, they will struggle to deal with their inner demons.

Today I am happy. Today I stand tall.

-Ashley

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