Hatred

I grit my teeth. I scream until my voice disappears. I cry. I repeatedly punch my pillow until my arms are exhausted. I lose my sense of self and my surroundings. This emotion inside of me doesn’t come out often. It’s always buried under the hatchet, and covered by the smiles, the laughs and the […]

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Desire

What I would do to feel loved again…. Every fibre of my being craves it. I just want someone to love me. I can’t go out places without looking at other happy couples that are in their own bubble. There’s so many things I want to experience in life, but I can’t find any enjoyment […]

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Drowning

Each time I get my head above water and catch a breath, another wave sends me tumbling under. These waves are getting stronger, and they’re pinning me to the sandy floor below. My lungs are craving oxygen and I’m going to drown. I’m slowly drowning. It feels like my life is slipping from my fingertips. […]

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Phoenix

‘From the ashes, a new life was born’ A common occurrence and the story of my life. It’s a case of 1 step forward then 10 steps back. But here I am; reborn and learning all over again. I’ve had a lot of things thrown my way, some that I thought would take me out. […]

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Dust

In the blink of an eye, everything that I had was gone. Once again, I’m left in the dust. I loved with every fibre of my being and I wasn’t enough. The little family that I had built and supported is now shattered. Things were slowly going downhill, but I held onto the hope that […]

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Spirit and Soul

I have found peace and clarity. It began with a little bit of soul searching, and reaching rock bottom but I’m slowly climbing again. I’ve discovered the healing powers of Reiki. I’m a few days off being a certified Master of Reiki. It has helped cleanse and heal all the anger, animosity and negative emotions […]

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Fire

My emotions are a raging fire. My feelings are like a tsunami. My memories make me feel like I’m drowning. I stumbled across a couple of your pictures and now there’s a gaping hole in my chest. It hurts to breathe again. It came out of nowhere. I was doing so well. I put it […]

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Craving

I crave a love as deep as the ocean. In saying that, the love I have is perfect. I love him with all my heart and I know he loves me. We have a perfect little family. But there are things that I wish I could have. I want to have my hand held wherever […]

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Lonely Late Nights

It’s 2am, and the world around you is fast asleep; blissfully unaware that you’re awake. In the darkness of the night, you’re holding your child; nursing them. You feed them, you burp them and you change their nappy. Your partner is snoring slightly next to you. You look down at your child and it feels […]

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New to Motherhood

Life has changed a lot this past month, and I’ve learnt so much more than I could ever imagine. On the 25th of September my son was born. It was probably the most stressful and traumatic time of my life. I had been labouring for 12 hours when I was wheeled off for an emergency […]

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